Sage Thoughts & Doings

Some Times, Some Things

2006-09-06T19:25:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wondered if one could have done things differently when armed with hindsight and able to turn back the clock.

Interesting wouldn't it? The thought of it is enough to make people wanna think and truly wonder if there was another outcome to the actions they would have taken.

Some times, i wish that i could have presented myself better
Some things, i guessed were never meant to be at all.

Some times, time spent on doing nothing would have being better spent on something
Some things make you wish they never happened

Some times I want to go back in time and make some changes.
Some things can never be done in time to repair any damages

Some times I would like to have better options than what I was given then
Some things just never go your way.

Some times you wish you could take back harsh words
Some things are better left unsaid

Some times you should have given in instead of taking a stand
Some things have no correct answers

Some times the choices you make affect your future
Some things you do affects others and not just yourselves.

Some times I wonder my reason for living
Some things are worth living for

Making choices

2006-06-19T10:39:00.000+08:00

I've tendered in my resignation after 'discussion' on some issuses. I'm getting that butterfly feeling in the pits that says I may be making a mistake. I'll be taking a pay cut for the next few months as compared to what I'm getting now. It's balanced that I'd get it higher once it's done. The working hours will change to reflect and It may be longer than what it is now but it's balance as I'll be doing what I would enjoy doing. I may be dropping classes and gaining them all back and more. I may be making the wrong choice but hey I dun always make the right ones. I do however can live right by them.

I do not believe in just mking money for I believe that to burn out yourself based on that alone will cause one to lose one own self. That I believe is bad and thus I've decided on this path. Walking with passion and when doing it well does have it's own rewards. This path I believe and thus I'll walk. I will walk this path knowing that this time whatever I believe, I'm not alone.

Hot Diss Day

2006-06-05T10:59:00.000+08:00

Yup it's the June Holidays or I shall term it as Hot Diss days.

It's Hot as all things that should have occured occurs. Gotta Love Murphy's Law.

Diss. THis happens when skills are called into quesiton despite showing on the spot what one has being doing all this time. I still need work on it.

Days. Well if it's not measured in seconds, minutes, hours, etc, etc blah blah........

I have got alot of work to do ironic as it seems. Students go home and i get to clear up the mess they left behind on the coms. Oh well at least I have got shortcuts to it. I have got to install new software too.......From XP i have to install 2003. oh well Office downgrade. Nice.

Picked up a couple more RPGA games. Dun cost much and doesn't add any expenses not already accounted for. Nice.

Looking for a couple of options since I have to put my studies plan on hold due to terrible finances. Oh well can't get it all. Perfect place with time to study and no $KaChing$$ to do it. Sad man. Oh well time to look further and harder.

Refreshing

2006-05-22T11:21:00.000+08:00

lol long time now. Had a pretty good bashing time where the dwarf paladin got to bash up no less than 17 Gnolls. lol. I needed that de-stressing.

Sigh on 1 hand my reservist is coming on the other hand, I got a possible new student so not all is lost. Perhaps I should sit back and reevaulate options again. y studies aren't coming along very well since I have already pre-calculated and the conclusion is pretty much unacceptable. Voting is over so that's another thing altogether.

X-men movie coming up and watching with YY and the rest of the gang.

Till next time.
Music is sometimes the best way to forget.

Different Views and Methods

2006-05-11T10:27:00.000+08:00

It's amazing how far technology has come. It has brought no end of grief and headaches to the teachers here. Some of them because they are not net savvy enough are experiencing massive headaches trying to keep up with their younger compariots. However they showed that they try to learn and undestand which kinda proves that learning doesn't ever end. Life is sure one heck of a giant of a classroom. I learnt quite a few things here and actually none of them much on IT.

I learnt how to relate better with kids and I think that should help me in my coaching lol. I also found that females do have it better lol. This is sure biased thinking on this part. No NS and enough time to go learn the world. Enough on this now. Office politics exist everywhere it seems and everyone who feels themselves more important tham others seem to have no idea how much it affects work. Additional stress can be avoided if the people open their damm eyes and see that there are other people working with them and not peons.

Another I happened to learn but maybe it's just me. Stay out of sights. It seems that I'm becoming not ust the TA but anything else the teacher can't handle and it seems remotely technological, it's call the TA time. lol.

Another time perhaps when I got my head, heart and soul back in proper sync. :)

Trusting to the point of Idiocy???

2006-04-25T11:23:00.000+08:00

Nice weekend. Enjoyed it. retty fun DnD session with the guys. dinner as usual. Had an interesting RPGA session on Monday @ PI. Kudos to Wayne. lol seems that my new hangout is PI. no life liao lol.

Today was reality smackdown. Bad. Big. Horrendous. Now I'm an idiot or a naive idiot or a simply incredible naive moronic, incompetent, trusting, easily suckered idiot. Take your pick.

I try so hard to to do well for my job and I try to make sure I cover the loopholes. Now how does one cover the loopholes when It is discovered that the loopholes were covering only bigger holes. Sure I'm not that professional but isn't some sense of responsiblity needed?

I did an inventory check only to discover that there were additional stuff that was NEVER entered. Worse thing is the guy who did the check assured me that it was all done, showing me the documentation that was prepared. Here's the news. THAT piece of OFFAL never did send in the in that informaiton and fool that I am, I believed him. Now I have to handle the mess. I swore once that Whatever happens in a task, I would endevour not to inflict it on the person taking over. Is this a naive thinking? I believe one should hand over duties with at least some courtesy of informing the person if some tasks are not yet done but maybe just me alone believes that. The general conseus would be "ahhh boh ka lan, anyhow do."

I mean come on man. Oh well now I'm just ranting. There so many holes covering holes if there is such a term or possible description, ah never mind. There are so many holes covering holes that it's not funny when the extent of damage comes clear and the worse thing is......................It blows up on me. Maybe I'm suay but dammmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not paid enough to handle all this shit. &*))%@#%$

I don't get OT, I dun get much compensation for additional expenses. I'm supposed to be this apparently degree holder who can do all the stuff which I'm offically not even allowed a whiff off. Ironic. I'm a supposed Tech Assistant who cannot do anything because ;
1: I don't have the keys to unlock it.
2: I dun have the permission to fix it.
3: I dun have the account to go and reset

What does this leaves me? Oh yeah Talking.........alot. Now I admit I failed Socialising and Talking tests staying in Brunei but this is ridiculous. I'm worried I'd just lose it and become so darn cynical that I will never find it within myself to trust anyone again. Why? I have being lied to too many times. The truth hurts. I'm a sucker. A friend once told me that I'll never make it in life. Why? I'm too nice, and in the outside world you're prey. So it seems that I must unleash the inner ruthless beast just to survive? Somehow deep within I fear that I will become that ruthless person those laughterable TV shows put on. The scary thing is, It's true............................

Singing the greens.

2006-04-21T13:33:00.000+08:00

Ok now that one of my close friends, Shai, has ORDed now is the time to sing away all those greens. I've got abit of a headache since I'll need to create a new character since I'm getting bored with playing my current Character in Fara'2 Campaign. I have also completed preparing the computer labs marathon. heh heh.

Bad note though, my sis borrowed money from me lol. I should have enough to last me through the month but this sucks man. I do not ever remember having to be this fiscally inclined disciplined person regarding my finances. It was always See budget, Set Budget and Spend Budget. Now it's count every single cent....... Sian man.

The school and job is indeed nice but the money seriously isn't. Maybe I'm immature in thinking about $$$ now but the way I lok at it, I can't progress anywhere else without it. I'm saving only about a whopping $100 a month........... How to go further studies like that???? Never mind I have already set a plan which will go into action from July onwards. It's really too early to be thinking like that but I can't help it. I want to do things, see places and people to meet. In short I want some other variation in life. I believe that there's always more I haven't met or done.

On another note, What's with all the moaning and depression laden atmosphere with some of my friends lately. Singlehood is not bad what. Freedom all around. heh heh heh. lol
Dun spread this bug to me.

Monday Greens

2006-04-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhhh...
Nice weekend. Abit of a bummer as I couldn't play much in D&D on sat. However It's was funny on Sunday. Will be trying out cinematics on YY's next session as it would definitely make it more fun. lol thinking about the hamsters and cows laying the smackdown would be funny. Inside D&D joke lol ask me if u're really interested and hopefully you'll know what I'm talking about.

Why no Monday Blues. Well I woke up ready to go and went for this Mass Briefing for TAs. Turned out to be pretty enlightening. Seems I'm now in a rush of time to go complete all my stuff while preparing for new stuff which will be coming on. Just updated my accounts and discovered one cheque bounced. Oh well Time to slog a little more I suppose. I really should start planning but no matter how I plan it even turning into a hermit (again) leaves me no better off than before. My accounts show a defict. sigh.

I really should go look for another job.
Maybe get ready to write a new title named 'Tuesday Blues'.

Given Thoughts

2006-04-13T12:22:00.000+08:00

It's said that having a goal to always earn more cash is good.
How much cash is enough?
When you earn enough cash to meet all expenses and have enough leftover. One would always have the tendency to splash on oneself. It's natural. What happens then most of the time is that one will get used to higher spending limit and before you know it, it adds to the expenses column for no other reason than it's there.
I got word from a colleague that he's leaving for a much higher pay and the company is intending to buy him over. Now granted he's already worked for a year but hey my little sister earns more cash than me......

Here's a simple comparsion;
Work 2 days Offf 1 day.
Monthy salary: 1700+ with CPF, without commission.

Now how 'su' is that?
Mine:
Work 5days week.
Monthy salary: 1000 with CPF

Ok granted that hers is a sales line compared to mine which is like office desk job, the difference is incredible. Based on just what is to be done makes me consider if I should just jump ship and go into that line instead if just for the cash value alone. Work wise, the load is about the same but the salary is a marked difference and most of the time responsibility is higher on my end. Sian.......

I want to study and yet I'm limited by this job. I have to admit that I was too hasty when I signed the dotted line and being too worried that I would not have any job offers. I received a few actually and I swear I could kick myself multiple times when I see the terms offered. Much better salary and perks and achieve more too. Now what is it I want? On one hand I dun wish to be seen as a job hopper but I know I cannot be truly happy doing what I am now. I know relying on one plan is never good and I usually plan for more but time is against me actually.

To give myself allowance to see if I am really suited for the job leaves me decisively undecided. I know when I look within I can't have it both ways but it doesn't me I can't stop trying. Anyway Techno music is indeed therapeutic in its own way. Oh well. Sometimes all I can do is bury and shove it somewhere until I can deal with it more objectively.

On a further note, I'm crazy and I decided to go for a new game. Just to see how it goes.

Crashed

2006-04-12T09:40:00.000+08:00

Man am I beat. I intended to go inflict self torture on myself yesterday but it turned out I had to have other plans. So I went down to Mount Faber Safra just to go collect some stuff as I'm going to play errand boy and dammm dun you think that if you want someone to do a favor you'd insist that the person bring the stuff to you???? Nah nevermind moving on.....I'm just a good-hearted sucker.

I suddenly realise I do miss poly life when on the train I saw this bunch of youngsters ( i sound damm old i noe) joking and making rather abit of noise in the train despite the rather staid atmosphere in the train. I know most people would be rather happy about heading home or maybe it's just that particular section of the train but I found myself as grim as those people baring the youngsters. Maybe because all had a bad day, exhaustion or just decided smiling would kill you. Oh well Being the sucker that I am I followed the flow.

So I bought bathing sand and sawdust for my hamsters nad went home but as I tried to carry one of them...............well it tried to take a nibble at me........
Shouldn't they be grateful to me??? They let me carry them before and I'm the one who bought their food, bedding, sand and cages.....grrrrrr. Idiot hamsters well if not for the fact that the kids love them so I'd not comment.......too much. I';; forgive them for now until the next bite or so.

Now at work and already have this rather impressive checklist to do so cya.
Oh yeah I have being found... dammm....... So much for thinking this is a rather secluded blog. lol

OK weekend.

2006-04-10T08:30:00.000+08:00

Alright the weekend has come and gone. I had a pretty relaxing one chilling with Shai, Kenneth, Elliot and Francis. Ha ha ha. I shall proclaim 2 of them as Withdrawals. One of love and the other of girls. Long story. Didn't give swimming lessons on Sat cause of threatening weather. Had a pretty hilarious DnD session in PI. Received news that we'd having new ppl join in for Sunday's DnD session. Am considering whether should I start playing DnD minis but must consider expenses. It's the balance of Want and Need again I guess.

I happened to comment on a blog of a friend and well got an email started exchanging small talk. Oh well better start adding blog links. lol I read a few but never really bothered to link them. Afterall this is a blog that should remain incognito afterall.

It's monday again and I'm blogging pretty early relativitely. Who knows it may just be peaceful Monday Blues day. :P
Oh yeah am addind in Nadia's blog links. lol

Screw up Somemore

2006-04-06T20:15:00.000+08:00

Oh great. Good intentions backfired.

I updated according to SOP(Standard Operating Procedure) on a com belonging to a clerk at school. Turns out she had to use an application that only accepts connections from computers with WIN XP service pack 1. I updated it to service pack 2......................

Now I'd got to go clone it over to service pack 1 again. For those who dun understand the technical terms it's ok. Bottom line is "I Screwed up!!!!!!".

So now tmr I'd got to unleash a miracle within 15 mins. Can be done but I sure as hell would be rushing like mad to do it.

Stupid system!! How to say must have latest updates and yet refuse those who did update. Ridiculous and oxymoron to go about it. Because of this one little thing, the computer which handles some of the most sensitive data;

Cannot be updated.
Vunerable to hacks or errors due to not having any security updates.
Has no way to encrypt data because it doesn't support encryption.

Marvellous... Simply Marvellous.

Another thing: I received my handphone bill and was shocked. I usually spend a conservative 30+ bucks. Guess what I went into the 200+ range. Shocked man. This job I realised actually has hidden costs. Cannot make it but it's still too early to draw such conclusions so I decided I'd observe for another month and see how.
Another bummer. I got Reservist training in June. It's barely Half a year since I ORD and I got reservist. This sux big time. How to keep things up if SAF butts in and decides they want ya to undergo training??? Worst thing is it's a 5 day ICT (In Cam Training). Sian man I tell you. Not my unit and I'm the only one from the platoon going over to this seemly overly garang camp. IPPT and dun noe what else to be inflicted. Think about it already low morale. Heck I got the feeling I'd just fail IPPT on low morale.
lol. Plenty of excuses but I needed some place to whine about it no matter how uncharacteristic of me. I should leave the whining to people who are off a higher level then me to do it.

On a good note. Weekend is coming soon so I'll be playing in the water, mood bad enough and I may just take up Shaisy's offer to go for a swim. :)

Uneven day... Yeah right

2006-04-05T21:23:00.000+08:00

Now today was a pretty laidback day. Drag respective a** out of bed and got down to school early. Now this didn't really help sweeten my mood so wat I did was imagine I was going swimming after doing or during one of Seal's events.

Now this helped somewhat but on the way to school today. I saw a classic case of molest, I mean in a bus full of people this one guy brazenly put his hand on this poor female student's chest. Said student must have being in a shock judging by her face and the worst thing?
People all around her just looked. I mean is this kinda of thing so common that the people taking their regular bus are now so jaded that they could ignore this? Ok maybe the surrounding people were in shock, thinking that the guy is her horny boyfriend or something else altogether. Well I'd say horny yes. Boyfriend, by her expression and the shocked expressions on what I surmised may be classmates by uniforms, I'd say no.

Well Like I mentioned, I wasn't in a good mood exactly so I may not be thinking properly so I did what I thought should be done. I raised a scene....................Fat lot of help it did. The guy leered at me, replied rather flippantly (I'd spare the details) and ignoring the now current surrounding glares of the people in the bus proceeded to try and repeat what he did earlier. I say try.............Well I should Stressed try. My next action kinda surprised me but like I say I blame errr lack of sleep, morning blues, lack of brain cells awake, hormones, etc.

Oh another thing. He was just beside me. Accidents do happen that's why you have insurance to cover the unforeseen ya know.

I lost control of my fist somehow and it punched him. Nearby passengers 'accident's' kicked him out of the door when the bus driver 'stepped' on the brakes and 'accidently' got the door to open. Out flew the sack of garbage but I must feel sorry for him somewhat and must pay my respects to the 5 girls whose respective feet struck unerringly at a, let us claim a sensitive anatomy here, ending this brief little scene. (I take back what I said on people being unresponsive, They just may have the same condition in the morning).

Reaching school, prepared the lab and had pretty much an uneventful day. Not bad for a typical day.

Peachy Just Peachy

2006-04-04T21:24:00.000+08:00

Today isn't a very good day for me.

Well can it, I have had pretty good day yesterday......I only had to run a couple of flights of stairs to assist computers. Note I said computers and not people. Why? They seem to have lost their brains recently and these are teachers to rub it in. They attended the briefing and still don't know what to do. I could grumble all day but hey in the end it's isn't really their fault. sigh.

Met Shai and Hua for dinner yesterday. Talked a little then Hua left. Window Shopped a little and met Kenneth. lol. Ok talked a little on Shaisy's little problem n well let's leave it as that. ok on to the story, window shopped abit more then went home to do some stuff. still waiting for little bro shaisy to send me some interesting stuff. *snicker* I reserve the right to call u shaisy since u said I was the older bro however that came about lol.

Ok on for today. Spent the entire day in the lab to prepare it for an important briefing but guess what..................Nice Word..............
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Blackout.

Excellent. Nuff said. Square one anyone? Yep this sucks. Now I managed to do double time in preparing another lab but i need to get to school early just to make sure everything is good. yep sometimes Life realllllyyy sux.

My life seems routines now lol.
Monday - Friday: Go to school
Saturday: Swim followed by Hilarious D&D @ PI or something else.
Sunday: D&D with YY and some others or maybe with some changes.

Yep if my life was a movie, it wouldn't be released not like that advertisement lol.

On another note;
Yoz Shaisy dun put yourself in a pressure cooker, life's fine as it is. Live it to the fullest and if stuff (s**t) happens then it happens. Just whack it somewhere low and and go take a bow. :)
Hearts and Minds are one and the same yet different. They always agree and disagree. Have fun bro, relax and take it easy.

Ohh Owww!!!!

2006-03-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

Today I guess just ain't my day though it did start off with a bang. Lol Almost the whole school couldn't surf the internet. Turns out the problem doesn't seem to lie with me but with the providers of the service namely the proxy server controllers. Well the internet did get back up but It got me thinking.

Sure I enjoy the job since I did managed to pick up a few tricks but I'm beginning to realise that I'm more of a frontline customer service provider than anything. I mean most of the stuff besides rebooting a computer or reinstalling a software doesn't seem to require me. They're all controlled by the service providers. I just call to inform them so and so is not working. They either give technical advice or do their work via remote access. In a way I understand why they'd prefer not to allow access to their systems but hey I'm the one who has to interprete the technical jargon into a form much more easily understood by my users. Hey I'm a technical translator. :)

Sigh Swimming seems so much appealing. Can't wait for lessons on sat. A danger. A joy. What the hell am I doing???

Sighs and More Sighs

2006-03-27T13:07:00.000+08:00

It's March and after my birthday. I'm older but sure as heck ain't any wiser. I got a job but it remains how long can I take it in this. I tried Sales, Events, Camp Coordination, swimming and now IT but if there's anyone confused, it's me. I tried to find wat i truely want to do and for my career, I narrowed it down to a few choices and I will not list them as I got the feeling it has the "subject to changes" clause in it.
Ok I'm doing fine so far in this new job of mine. It's a contract for 1 yr and well it's' for a pretty well known company so I'm sure it'll be nice to look at on my resume. The place is nice and well students and teachers are well nothing extraodinary. Yes I work in a school so I'm not lying when I say : "I'm going to school now." or "I go to school everyday." An idiotic way of phrasing yet somewhat hilarious as the implications of what I said hits home and different people start getting different answers. It's a laugh I tell you sometimes. Here's some questions or replies I received in return;
"Oh you're a teacher." <---Ok No sane parent or school would let me teach. I don't see myself as a teacher...............seriously.
"What Course are you taking???" <--------I seriously wish I was studying at times. Need to keep up with the times you know.
"How Old are you?" <---After finding out the school is a secondary school. lol. I don't need to take my O' Levels again thank you very much. Once is more than enough.

Nothing much nor eventful. I heard quite a few love stories so far and *prepares large smelly fish with 9 foot tongs* and should anyone even hints of somethingthat I should do something about my deficient love life would receive this action-> /me smacks with a large smelly fish.
Heh heh Heh. A throw back when MIRC was hot. Now it's I dun noe what is hot now. I'm still on MSN. Any new fangled IMs out there somehow?

I received a damper to my mood today. I Opened my E-Mail and wah lau weh. Received 1x very nice mail. It's a reservist email informing of my Reservist in June. Yes Sirree it's this June and the best thing is It's not even my unit instead it's somewhere damm far. I live East and I report for my Reservist in the West. Excellent work from our Guys there. Got to love my life. Sux so baaddddd that I create a mini blackhole where ever I go.

Yeap THat's life. You come up against something, you deal with it the best way u know how. It just may not be the best solution sometimes. On that note, It's time to hit the work again until my next blogging. lol
I'm really behind, definitely need to update somemore.

A Tale of 3 Rs: Rush, Realization & Reality

2005-12-25T16:01:00.000+08:00

I write this during Christmas amidst all the yuletide greetings and what nots after a really long absence from my blog. Why?

Let's begin with the rush:
I EOT (End of Tour) on the 13th of Nov. Meaning which I returned to dear sweet Singapore on this date...Permanently. Thus begun a odyssey of doing nothing much other than plain enjoying myself. Make that under sleeping, wandering confused, eating by myself or plain just wasting time doing things that could have being better left undone. Finding out most friends either are working/on duty/overseas/married/nusy getting married tends to put a damper on things and knowing just how low i stand brings this to another level.

On to the Realization:
It's simple really after learning that money DOES flow like water in my hands thus I hit on a brillant plan (for me that is) to go place it where it can't be accessed easily. I threw the extra hard earned $$$ into another bank account, a savings bond and an investment unit. All these little precautions came into being without additional input or worries. They maybe small returns comparably with high risk investments ammounting to thousands of $$$ but I'll still make a tidy sum in time. Now that is the important thing. Which brings into another level to examine.

It's Reality:
Now ideally we can all survive without lifting a finger but thats almost impossible for the minions like me. I need to find a job and here's the best thing. I want to go into a line of which I have absolutely, on paper qualifications at least, no qualifications to be doing. I have an ICP diploma (Internet Computing) specializing in networking but the job I wish to do leans towards Events Management or Logistics side of it. Why the sudden change one may wonder... It's actually damm simple. My diploma is passe and worst after spending 2 years plus in the army and not touching on any related stuff kills your knowledge pretty quickly. Sure I could go read up on it but then I got posted to Brunei and fine I did volunteer but hey when it comes down to it.........the $$$ guided my path.
ok now $$$ isn't on my side but hey look on the bright side (What bright side!!!!), I'd need to go brush up on selling myself. It's just that I'm still not sure how to exactly go about it. I asked around but you know how it goes when something just screams WRONG about the whole thing. I'll just have to see how it goes. Afterall if I want to continue studying I'll first need the stuff to help me out mainly the true king of this world. ---------->>>$$$.

An interesting thing to note (fun too)

2005-11-14T19:43:00.000+08:00

lol This was something I was introduced to.

Quite interesting too.

Here's my first try at it.

George Washington
You scored 62 Wisdom, 84 Tactics, 53 Guts, and 38 Ruthlessness!

Washington first served as a British officer during the French and Indian War, a war which he inadvertently helped to start. Afterwards, he resigned his post to marry Martha Dandridge Custis, a wealthy widow with two children. He was elected to the House of Burgesses and became a revolutionary leader at the outset of the American Revolution, attending both the first and second Continental Congresses. Washington was appointed Commander in Chief of the Continental Army in the American Revolutionary War (1775–83), leading the Americans to victory over the British, although sometimes in not the most scrupulous of ways. After the war, he served as president of the 1787 Constitutional Convention. Because of his central role in the founding of the United States and enduring legacy, Washington is sometimes called the "Father of his Country."

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 47% on Unorthodox

You scored higher than 93% on Tactics

You scored higher than 42% on Guts

You scored higher than 24% on Ruthlessness

Link: The Which Historic General Are You Test written by dasnyds on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

All about the colors

2005-09-22T11:23:00.000+08:00

I have being reading the newspaper despite getting them a day late or so. The news that did catch my attention is that bloggers have being arrested for racism. It’s a dirty word yet in truth you see it everyday whether in big or small ways. It may even be integrated within ourselves when we are born. This is definitely not true IMO.

Here's something I experienced myself.

Before I left for Brunei, my nieces could happily play on the playground with other kids, be it white, brown, black, rainbow etc. When I came back for my home leave the last previous months, I realized one thing when I took them out for a short walk to buy some groceries (ok my things, the kids got saddled on me), where they used smile and wave at their malay, indian friends before, they were silent and sullen when we passed by another family going out. I noticed it and was kinda surprised at that time and so I asked them. The story I got could truly prove that kids get their attitudes from their parents. It turned out that their mother got into a minor quarrel with the other kids parents regarding the other party’s son kicking at my oldest niece on a slide. According to the kids it was an accident but somehow it got overblown. I have no idea how that happened.

Side note to self. Don’t get between mothers and their children.

Whatever the case, the damage was done and somehow it seemed the son was now anti-chinese since he ignored all his previous chinese friends. He must be confused as I look nothing like your typical chinese due to my mixed blood. I’m dark and told I resemble more a malay due to my tanned skin than a chinese. I get described as a chinese by my malay friends abject with dark skin. It doesn’t matter though as I get very mixed reactions on being a chinese or a malay, in fact I find it a joke when my friends are unsure as to my racial identity on my first meeting me. I’m a filipino – chinese mixed lol.

Which leaves me a little matter enough to make me more than a little worried. What if someone posts something racial or with intent to spread racism on my blog (small chance) and being that I seldom manage to get online as I’m still doing my tour in Brunei, I may not be able to monitor my blog or what gets posted on it regularly. Would I end up being sued? Somehow the answer I came up with doesn’t help allay my fears. Nice……………. Blogging for fun? Likely to get sued? Real nice…………. Seriously………

A couple more months to stay in Brunei lor. Come back try get attached lor. EOT lor!!!!! ORD soon lor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sweet Singapore!!!!! Soon My precious Soon My precious heh heh heh.

Rats!!! A real Big ‘un

2005-09-10T11:22:00.000+08:00

Animal Chat observations. Also applicable to the real world at large.
(Disclaimer I have nothing against rats. Serious. )

Rats are all over the place and they are really making their presence felt whether in subtle or obvious ways. Sneaky and devious with a cunning understanding of procedures and the way a system works. Working from the dregs scheming and observing for weak points to strike, they make good conspirators yet dangerous as they seem supportive of change yet resistant to the every minute changes they wish to make. As long as they see it as not with them, plans are scuttled and swept away without it seeing the light of day. Nothing is sacred to them, not experience, age nor standing. They will remake it as they wish to whether it means stepping over others and leaving them to whither behind them. They are merely stepping stones no more than that. A path trodden by them on others without a care but their own.

Rats are just that. Rats. Eagar to move up they’ll willingly sell others for a pittance as long as they think it gives them an edge and does not put them in a disadvantageous position. If there’s a molehill, a mountain will be raised just to show that they can even if it serves no purpose other than as a declaration of war.

There are other rats which know nothing outside the confines of their own comfort world. These rats are a bane as they have authority yet no knowledge, want something done yet no wish to get down to it and see it through, choosing instead to delegate to someone else who has a better knowledge and then criticizing them on things that can have no improvements to them. Nothing can be done if the explanation flies by past their unwilling closed minds.

Perhaps in future, there would be better places or people but not where I am at the moment.

Amazing Things I should Have seen (or best not Have)

2005-09-01T11:19:00.000+08:00

Woah. Check out how long have I not even thought of this little space of public thoughts. I went back to Sweet home Singapore from the 1st of august to the 16th and guess what I didn’t really get out that much. Reason? Let me give you a very good reason where almost all guys can or will sympathize.

It is one word. A somewhat dreaded word.

SAF

Gives you shivers eh? I had to run some errands during my all too short holiday in Singapore and let’s just leave it as that.

I brought back my PS2 which I had brought to save myself from the horrors of boredom and the tedious task of finding myself entertainment. The friendly neighborhood wildlife can only give you so much entertainment.
I would also like to add in a disclaimer here now that I did not kill or hurt any of the natural wildlife in my environment for the sake of entertainment. I did not do it.

Naturally I left it back home. I felt having a few months left in Brunei and the chances of then using it being so slim, I could qualify for a sliming centre advertisement, it would be pointless lugging it around between the two countries.

Now I’m buying back games so that this lazy writer would not have to go and buy anymore games. It also means that with the release of the new PS3 makes my PS2 go under the obsolete category. Never mind. It’s my entertainment.

I do moan that being away from home for so long that some friendships seem strained to the point that sieves seem more akin to it than any solid friendship. I guess that there are some things I would take for granted and ever bothered to take it out and maintain it. All that lack of polishing took the shine of the precious artifact called friendship.

Coming back to hell, being that this place is affectionately called that, I would have the luck to work on a project with I shall politely call Jackass to preserve a somewhat PG rating on this. Seriously views on the SAF are based on who you had worked with effecting whether you leave with good views or the bad. Unfortunately I think I would be leaving with the bad. It is said One bad apple spoils the barrel. Well it is true. Sadly true.

Oh yeah before I forget. I have being so called spamed. The offending article will be deleted lol.

An end and a Beginning (Lull to Frame)

2005-07-22T14:19:00.000+08:00

A starting for a title with 3 ‘Ns’ is not a bad start. Its being a long lull and things are starting to pick up. Things were already starting to heat up way before the New Frame started. Tensions were rising for some inexplicable reasons and fists were more likely to be used then the more peaceful methods. Also I can look forward to this current frame, mainly because I’m going back to sweet, sweet Singapore. Yes on 020705 is when I’ll step back on the soil I was born. Sweetness!!!! Yeah!!!

Aside on taking a C-130 back home, I’m still glad to be back home. Truth to tell I was getting homesick and I seriously missed being back home. I miss my family and friends and I was getting mind rot. A new condition I have diagnosed on myself as the result of probably staying here in Brunei too long. On another thought I have got to wonder what I’d actually do once I’d get back home. There’s so many things I wanna and some stuff I intend to buy. Going back only on 160705 if all goes well and only if my expected home leave is as it was forecasted.

Recently I heard that there was this bloggers convention and it was impressive from the scattered accounts I heard. We do have a sizable amount of bloggers who are willing to come forth and be known. Needless to say It’s a chance to see all those who were unknown although from the ST newspaper I’m aware that getting to know each other could be awkward being that we are still in the process of being more free with being open with complete strangers. This I believe would come naturally given time. It’s also a chance to meet with the blogsphere’s more popular residents and as well as take pictures with them for posterity. Lol I suppose being known does have it perks and downsides I suppose.

Well cheers on to more blogging abject responsible ones of course.

Visions (a one sided nonsensical conversation)

2005-07-22T14:18:00.000+08:00

Lol I broke my specs…. Well part of it
In a game of soccer……..I was avoiding the ball
I hit someone else …………only thing hurt were my glasses
Bloody hell!!!!!!!................ now enjoy the visions

I can’t see……….that’s expected
Can’t see clearly ………since my vision is very high
of course that’s what my glasses are for!!!......moron
got my spare sent to me………… where got DHL for this kind of thing!!!!

Got my specs back……….. no not the spare one
Someone help me bring to spec shop to repair somewhat…………..better than nothing
Got my vision back……….great relief.
Need that spare one soon……wait long long

Standstills

2005-06-20T17:53:00.000+08:00

I’m stuck in a standstill.
A place where time passes me by
A time where I’m all alone
I need to get to a place
But I can’t find it.
I can’t move
There’s nothing I can see

Somewhere Beckons
I cannot answer but I hear it keenly
A vacuum where I’m unnoticed even by the ones I wish to be seen by
I want to move to the lights
But all around me is darkness
Time remains frozen
And I don’t know what to do

I wish for someone to call out to
Somewhere I know is waiting
Coldness within me
Snuffs out any fire ablaze
Freezing my insides
Making it brittle
Vulnerable to cracks

Something hits me
I don’t know what
I feel something shatter
Deep within
I know there is pain
But I feel only emptiness
Where is my pain

I cannot stay here
I need to find the light
A path to be found
Got to keep moving
Stage a prison break
Strengthen myself
Move out of my standstills.

Flowers, of Numbers and color

2005-06-18T17:51:00.000+08:00

(Ahem. This disclaimer is to show that I’m not against the spirit of flower giving nor is it having anything against flowers or florist in general.)

Of color

They say White Roses show respect
But what kind respect do you want?
That of a parent? A elder? As kin? As family? Close friend? A lover?
For yourself or your accomplishments?
How about self respect?

Red Roses are meant to represent passion
But it doesn’t mean to be passionate about someone doesn’t it?
I can be equally passionate on my cars, computers or models
It could be my work or simply finding meaningful things to do
You can find passion anywhere or just about in anything

Yellow Roses are to show envy
So I should use this to show a friend I’m envious of his life
Spread the word that I’m jealous
Oh yeah! I’m jealous that you found someone better than me.
Awesome. Spread the word………

Red and White is for reconciliation
So for passion and respect to come together
You hope for a reconciliation?
Go fly a kite, easier to get lightning strike
What are you doing letting go in the first place?

(Another disclaimer where I will claim having no knowledge what all this actually means. It’s meant only for fun nothing else. Nothing serious. Honest)

Of Numbers

One Stem = Only One
If one is for just you, why am I deemed stingy?

Two Stem = World of 2 people
Apparently you want one big happy family. Isn’t two of us already cosy enough?

Three Stem = I Love You
Yeah I know it’s easier to give this then say it.

Four Stem = Undying Promise
A commitment just to you and to no one else, just how many guys you see give this anyway? (Other than the pricing problems.)

Five Stem = No Regrets
No comment on this one except as above

Six Stem = Happiness and Satisfaction
Let’s face it. This because the florist is HAPPY to sell something and we are SATISFIED to get something which we think is bound to make you happy at a good price.

Seven Stem = Endless Good Wishes
Guys let’s not go into this one. We’ll never live up to this and we certainly don’t want to be found lacking.

Eight Stem = Please Forgive Me
I didn’t mean it. What ever I did to make you mad anyway.

Nine Stem = Eternity
I’m yours forever as long as your eyes are on me that is.

Ten Stem = Perfection
You are perfect no matter how you look or what you do. (Besides you won’t take no for an answer)

Eleven Stem = One Heart, One Mind
When it comes to this stage, it means you know all my thoughts and movements. I surrender and live all future planning to you.

Twelve Stem = Heart to Heart
The sweetest time when I first met you and we didn’t know each other (well enough then)

Superficial, Superb, Scuttled

2005-06-01T17:50:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had a day that you wake up too with a sense of forbidding? A day where you just cannot shake off even though you don’t remember having made any appointment, promises or anything resembling a schedule? A day where everything just cannot be salvaged rendering any effort to do so futile?

Well congrats to me I just had such a day. Absolute rubbish day to go and end, even on a beautiful morning……..especially on a beautiful morning.

Most of these feelings are now mostly negative……..hey don’t expect optimistic thoughts here. This is a rant. A RANT………… They were also cause by people whether directly or indirectly. Loose cannons who blast without disregard of what they say although a great many things pointed out by them in this way was also pointed out and admitted by them for their own transgression. Not only that, they are puffed up so full of themselves, sometimes you wonder why they don’t burst with all that hot air. Here’s an answer for you which is typical of a world dominated by superiority of perceived experience of the world. These people seem to fail to notice the discrepancy. Well kudos to them.

When something goes wrong, you delegate to the those lower life forms ranking below you. When something looks up, you also delegate but to yourself and all those higher up. Ironic that the results tend to be something lower life forms do but seldom get the credit for. When something goes wrong, blame the small guy even if he followed instructions to the t. this is reality. Harsh reality.

Sure the apologies are forth coming as well as attempts to justify their words or actions. Too bad the damage is done. Wounds done on the body can heal but wounds done to the inner psyche seldom do and do so slowly.

There are those who wants to go by the book and will do so to the extreme with no bends in rules or ability to relent or reconsider a certain action. These dumb asses then expects others to be cut some slack get real.
There are those who are the mighty judges and would try to impose their superiority whenever they can. Peacocks they are but sometimes they can back it up with their experience however they are too set to see another point especially if it contradicts their own.
There are those who instantly want to show that they are the boss and would try to take leadership roles as fast as possible and in the meantime bash down the opposition. These little bugs would show their displeasure without considering the reason and if there is, shoot it down with everything they have.
There are the lecturers of life who would regale you with incredible stories of their life experience and follow up with some cock and bull reason meant to be the moral of their just concluded story. The truth? Nothing related or have the slightest bearing on the topic. Nuff said.
There are others who are the downtrodden who find other ways to relieve their stress or repress and bottle everything within them or finding ways to vent them though in not so direct ways.
Also remember first impressions are very important as you will always be judged on it. So to mislead, screw it up but be prepared to face the consequences as they’ll be hard to change.

End of rant.

Nothing on the topic that happened nor any reason why it did. This is after all a rant. After all who really wants to talk about what happened. Just made me unhappy that’s all. Nothing to it.

Late Birthday Greetings

2005-04-13T09:32:00.000+08:00

Due to the nature of late blogging and updates. Sorry.

Woo Hong Ling's birthday on Wednesday April 13th
YunHao Emily Chen's birthday on Monday April 4th.
Julia Chow's birthday on Thursday March 24th.
Teck Choo Ong's birthday on Thursday March 10th.
Melvin Dai's birthday on Monday March 7th.
Shah Shah's birthday on Tuesday March 1st.

Owwww

2005-04-12T09:11:00.000+08:00

Ok let’s look at when I red to write in and update my blog. Quite long ago I suppose I was busy collecting dust. I shall keep thing simple and short.

The frame has started.
I shall not comment on euthanasia being that it’s getting very wide media attention and my adding on to it would be nothing new and also since I don’t know much about it. I shall add zilch in as well.
No comments on a prominent religious leader who has passed away. All respect and regrets for one so committed to what he believes in. I am not a good writer with absolutely zero talent in the field of writing.
I met an old school friend here in Brunei and this guy has being with me since primary to secondary and then tertiary education. Not bad when we say coincidence. Did some catching up but I must be terribly distant for his comments seemed awfully true.
My extension is approved now I need to find out how long I extended my tour here.
I have finally managed to update my blog as one can see if one is observant enough to notice that all the timings seem to be the same except that the date are different. Heh heh heh.

Birthday Shakes

2005-03-18T09:11:00.000+08:00

To name this after my birthday after nearly a week seems to be a joke of sorts. What I can say is that there are many changes that has happened over the past few days.
The number of people leaving is now a reality. New guys are here.
My birthday was meant to be quiet until it was discovered ‘accidentally’, adroitly uncovered by a well-timed parcel addressed to me.
Subsequent regimental duties to be performed was as boring and non-traumatizing as per normal which is good.

Enough about that then!!

The new guys are good and well I shall reserve judgment on them as I’m not really in the best of positions to make them. I’m not that saintly myself. I haven’t gotten into any trouble or done anything stupid. So there! Nothing remarkable about my unassuming life.

I went up and started picking up the guitar again somewhat though how good I’m gonna be remains to be seen. I read a couple of blogs myself and was quite impressed on some of them. Some of them puts me to shame just by their apparent sophistications of the world at large and usage of impressive words while others write pretty good articles ranging from airplanes to zoology. It doesn’t matter what age they were, heck some of them were younger than me. It just goes to show just how much out of touch I am with the current affairs of the outside world.
I read with some sadness on a friend’s blogs of her troubles and heard of another’s lost of a parent. I’m not there in spirit and neither am I there in person. I could say I didn’t even make much phone calls at all. Something is seriously wrong with me. I have to get my act together and do something. I’m complacent. Face it. I won’t get off my butt to do something because I’m far too lazy to do something about it. Frightening isn’t it when you start realizing it. Must be the effects of age I suppose. The problem here is what am I gonna do about it……………….

Life is like a forge (here I go again), Trials and Tribulations are part and parcel of it. Trials is like the fires of the forge testing one’s mettle to see how far you can go before melt into despair entirely. Tribulations are like hammer blows to shape into a useful tool or may shatter the material should it proved to brittle. When that happens, pick up the pieces and start forging anew. Only how many would be willing to do that? It’s a question worth pondering isn’t it? Just how many pieces are worth putting together again instead of just giving up gathering the pieces all over again? I’d only you would know the answer to that.

Belalong and Changeovers

2005-03-08T09:11:00.000+08:00

Today is the day I went out on a Official Camp Trip to a place called Belalong. Well it seemed at first to be a boring place to go to but I ended up having no regrets as it truly is a beautiful place. Turns out there’s an Outward Bounds Brunei Darussalam there as well. Lol.

It’s quite a distance from the camp to Belalong which incidentally is also a National Park. It’s home to some of the tallest trees and has claims that it is not fully explored with hints of having secrets hidden in it. Meaning to say this is a virgin tropical rain forest untouched by the construction efforts of civilization. The one thing I was looking forward to was having a chance to have a better look at the majestic Hornbills. I saw them last at my Mars Station which is outfield and that rarely so I saw this as a chance to observe them even better just that there was one little snag…………I saw none of them, not even
heard a single cry. Sad isn’t it? Maybe it was their day off.

To start off we sat in a boat. Short and simple and does it sound familiar? Seems everything in Brunei have this reliance on boats. Anyway back to the story of this day. The boat or in this case sampan/long boat was different from the other boats in that this time there was a plowman who sits at the front or the prow to guide the boatman manning the engine. The plowman or woman also has the job to plow the boat through shallow and rocky waters which turned out to be pretty often. It’s not an easy job and it takes skill to navigate the river itself as there are rapids and the waterways are mostly restricted to narrows channels due to the river’s state. The boat itself was built low and sometimes one can even feel the bottom scrapped by the riverbed.
One good thing is that the water is marvelously crystal clear giving a good view of the riverbed just under you. The depth at most times were around the knee level so getting out to sometimes help push the boat whenever it got stuck in the river which seemed to happened pretty much going upriver than downriver. The scenic value of the trip along the river is not to be underestimated as one can take a good look as the forest lining along it giving a tranquil veil. Another thing worth noting is the rocks that litters the riverbed. It reminds me a bit of my Geography lessons. The rocks are polished smooth by the fast flowing river and come in various sizes as well as shapes and colors. I haven’t really seen an jagged or broken ones so could attest at the subtle power of the river. Having stepped into it I can bear witness to the strength of the current.
Another highlight of this trip was the 1000+ steps we had to climb after a short crossing of a part of the river. Climbing it was pretty tiring though it wasn’t so strenuous that one could just give up. The rewards though for preserving through made it worthwhile as one can then climb up a steel ladder and walk on a suspension bridge that is above the canopy also know as the canopy walk. The view was amazingly spectacularly breath-taking in that not only were you at the highest point and could see over the canopy but also that one could see in the far distance a part of the ridge line of Mount Biang. The sky and low lying clouds hovering to obscure part of Biang added to the scenic value of it. It was truly too bad I didn’t have a camera.
After a short walk down a jungle trail, swimming and playing in the blessed cool waters of the river, we then headed back for camp

Sometimes Life is like the river. Sometimes it’s wide, slow, tranquil and smooth while at other times it’s fast, furious, rough and narrow. There are good times and bad times just as there are shallow and deep parts of the river. Like the river Life also has hidden rocks that could be obstacles or stepping stones but should never be dismissed without thought as sometimes even a small hidden rock could make a difference between a boat capsizing.

It’s Changeover time!!! Seems like I’ve walked into a time of change again. Many new perm staff and just as many leaving. I’ve seen people go and new ones replacing them so many times that I now feel old. Even the new ones that come replace the old are serving only 5-7 months and I see them leave too only to be replaced by others who may or may not serve the same time here in Lakiun camp. Some instructors are leaving as well as drivers, storeman and messing. There are times on reflection that I do miss the ones who ended their tour and have returned back home. It is things like these that make me long for home myself. A word, a feeling, a certainty. The word home often evokes strong feelings. I’d end up missing my loved ones and also reminiscing on lost opportunities. I wish I could stay in further contact such as more sms but I know as well I just don’t make the effort to do so.

I’d stop here and yes I attempted to organize my photos somewhat as a last note.

Valentine’s Day Buffer

2005-02-15T09:11:00.000+08:00

I’m back in Brunei with the trees and the nasty, fascinating and unique animal & plant life. I went back to Singapore for a all too short period of 1 week or less. I’m happy that I went back. I visited my family and friends for Chinese New Year, Period of Leave : 08-14 of Feb. Yes it sucks to come back on Valentine’s day but then again since I seldom come out on that day anyway so it won’t affect me that much but I’d still like to rant about it. Lol.

What did I do in Sunny Singapore? Well for this time, not only did I go collect ‘Ang Baos’ but also went down to down town east and tried out the new them park (to me) Wild Wild Wet. Not many pretty gals in bikinis to see but there were some and to me most looked to young even the youths working there. Lol. Cannot Make it. Stay some time in Brunei get deprived already.

Now there are some things that hurt me and that’s knowing when I inadvertently unwittingly walked into a brewing cold war. Now I admit I love being a fence sitter because then I wouldn’t have to show or give face in either side. Face it I’m a coward and with a good reason in my humble opinion. In this instance I’m on a side, only difference I didn’t choose it but was instead chosen for this side. It is this thoughtless piece of action that got me upset and a little more than just disappointed. I met friends and I didn’t get an acknowledgement or even a decent attempt at a conversation. I mean, did I do wrong in coming back? This is utter bullshit.

That aside I’m still glad I came back and the truth is I’m not too sure when I’ll be coming back ‘cause I’m looking to get a driving license here. It’s cheaper but I may not be able to come back to sweet Singapore any time soon. Let’s see how it goes then. Oh yeah………………..I hate coming back on V-Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Updates Finally

2005-02-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

Ok this post is mainly because I finally Updated mu blog....after so long and to say that I have touched down on Singapore on the 8th of Feb.

Yay!!!!!!!!!!

Ok in case I forget for Jan's Birthday people.

Happy Birthday in advance. :)

It is Kahlay Ang's birthday on Thursday January 20th. Kahlay will be 22 years old.

Preposterous!!!!!

2005-01-26T18:19:00.000+08:00

Now for the title, well it was because I felt cheated…….I mean come on a LAN shop that doesn’t support USB??? Worse off they can tell you to go try install the support yourself and then refuse to help you any more than that? Ridiculous piece of service I tell you. I finally managed to get my off and thinking that I could finally update my blog, and guess what happened? ……………….. Damm it turns out I couldn’t do so. Now I do guard duty the day I come back from off but that wasn’t so bad. What’s worse is they gave me a chance to come back from outfield to do…guard duty again…………..Marvelous. Fantastic. Simply great!!!! Just shoot me will ya.

This whole section will be a short burst rant and will be aimed at nothing but to fill up space and to vent some frustrations on things. Good news is I may be coming back in February to sweet sweet Singapore. Bad news is I may not but based on this who cares??

Next update if possible. I will get my damm blog updated. Llolololololololollol

Attempted middle finger representation failed……………………………………

Waves about money, value of lives and commendations

2005-01-12T18:18:00.000+08:00

I’ve being out for some time and on the day I come back I’m under a sudden deluge of news about this entire disaster that came without warning and took the shine from the new year. One that took many lives and couldn’t be stopped nor was its warning heeded. It brought about countless pages in printed ink about the misery it caused, the heroism that arose, the inspiration that came about and the controversy it caused. Newspapers all over the world brought news about it to all over the globe. Front lines, front pages carried on for many days and all about just one thing. Yes the tsunami disaster brought up nature’s terrible power and also Perhaps one of Man’s finest hours. It teaches you respect for Nature’s Wrath and gives one hope and inspiration for Man.

It came without warning and devastasted what was an idllylic popular holiday resort. It smashed up homes, familes and hope. Thousands lost their homes and many lives were lost to its merciless waves. Survivors mourn their lost kin, friends and what was once their homes. The trauma that will follow in such a devastating aftermath will be great and already experts say that some will need many months of counseling. Some they say……In my humble opinion ‘some’ is an understatement.
Grief is splashed in the papers showing the pain the survivors have to go through. Here you have stories of how the waves washed away many a family, driving a darkness into light of families, the taking away of father, mother, brother, sister, children or worst leaving one of two survivors of the entire family. Stories of a child who doesn’t know his mother will never smile at him again. A child who doesn’t understand that his mother is gone and would never come back like the way she used to after work. You have a parent’s heartbreak at having to make a choice of choosing whom to save and still hope for the best only to have it cruelly shattered to pieces on discovery of said child. A father’s grief at failing to save his beloved children or a husband’s lament at failing to save his wife. Children mourn their lost parents remembering their parents’ last great act, sacrificing themselves to save them. Many remembered and many are still coming to terms with their grief

There are stories of heroes that decided to a make a difference and give aid even when it did not concern or threaten them. These people along with those in the affected areas are all heroes in that they chose to help with or without support and to you all I salute. Giving comfort, clearing wreckage, sending food and setting up makeshift homes. All these people from all over the world joined hands to give aid to those who needed that helping hand. These people gave their well wishes and showed their concern through the aid sent and volunteers who flew in to the affected countries. Military forces from Singapore were sent in as part of relief efforts and elsewhere similar efforts are being made and sent where they’ll do best. To provide food and medicine for so large a number is not easy and is the sheer numbers makes it’s a daunting task but it’s a task the relief forces have taken and done well. All efforts are underway to search for survivors and to provide shelter, food and whatever other aid necessary.

There is one thing that mars the rescue effort though in my humble opinion and perhaps I cannot understand this.
Monetary donations.

Why can this be an issue? Is there some hidden agendas of countries in wanting to show how much money they can give? I thought donations honestly were given as to how much was given was up to the giver. However that wasn’t the case, countries that gave too little aid were criticized for giving too little, and the smaller countries complain indirectly that bigger countries with more $$$ are bullies. There are also subtle words being thrown around that the money given were actual proven indicators of a countries status. One country in particular who is a growing power was shamed into giving more only because a ‘renegade’ providence actually gave more in the beginning. Arab countries gave more when the west decided to say something about their contribution. Is there something I’m missing? Are countries actually using this entire episode of human suffering as a stage for political gain?? Tell me I’m wrong because according to the papers I read this seems t be the case. I dare say I’m not alone in saying this. Why is it the countries must compare the amount they can give? Is there some kinda of ranking that says how much a country can give in order to showcase their status? Is it maybe those countries that gave more initially were unhappy that they were parting with more cash than their perceived ‘richer’ neighbors or were they righteously angry about the cheapskate nature of said countries. I may never know simply because I’m just a simple man in the street or that I didn’t bother to find out.

All in all that’s all I have to say on the tsunami and my condolences to all who are affected. I’ll try to follow more on this and I offer my apologies if I have offended any with my opinions.
Till next time. Kudos <>

Happy New Year!!!!!

2005-01-04T18:16:00.000+08:00

Today the new year and I’m still doing my guard duty and yes I’m still continuing it but I was saved by a kind soul who decided that I would not be able to continue my duty the day after since I was scheduled to go outfield. This Kind soul unfortunately was suckered punch because It turned out I was delayed for one day…. Heh heh heh. This kind soul is Lim Zhi Guo who would like to call himself ninja but for the fact that he is full of scandals, hence his nick of scandal. Ha ha ha ha.

Fine I’m outfield and I’m being told that my bonus leave is approved and that I might be ‘promoted’ to Comcen which is considered in our area somewhat as a Jail. Damm.. Anyway I made my New year resolution to be a ‘bad guy’ since to be good guy is nearly impossible and I have decided it cannot be done. At least by me thus this resolution, which I think should be easy to keep. Lol.

Seems like there’s a lot of things to do but it doesn’t matter simply because, it means time not to think about things I’d rather do or rather be.

Thinking back, many things have happened and I have survived or lived thru it. What ever the case no matter be it a right choice, I’ll live right by it.

Kudos. And to better things tomorrow always……………………..cheers

Last Duty of the year. Missies and hits. Yeah right.

2004-12-31T18:14:00.000+08:00

What can I say about today? I pulled for guard duty today. Therefore I’m doing the last duty of the year. Whoo Hoo!!!!!! Siao Boh. Yah lor. Of course considering I could have pulled for the 25th of the month which is Christmas as well as New Year Eve. Then again Another signaler, Paul, also known as 16-parang (si liu parang dao), helped me to do. Then again I got hit by news that I’ll might be doing the New Year’s Guard Duty as well…….. Oh My GOD !!!! Last duty of Year 2004 and First Duty of Year 2005 Steady lah. Cannot make it lah. Never Mind. On the day I knew which was today, I resolved to make a new resolution….HA HA HA HA HA. Will mention on the new year .

Time: 23:58:45

Siao Lah . Got timing one ok. Can wait and time this later transfer online. Cannot ah. Net here sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo slowwwwwwww.

Time: 23:59:23

Oh yeah don’t forget.
Happy Birthday to Charlene for today is her birthday………..
(insert evil snicker) gonna be over…………HAHAHHHAHAH
Can get ready for countdown lah.

Time: 23:59:50

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Happy New Year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Sai Kang Welcome

2004-12-24T18:11:00.000+08:00

OK this one is a combined blog to make things easier on me.

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Well it’s being some while but I’ve being busy. The flight that brought me back to dreary old jolly Brunei was Royal Brunei Airlines and the truth to say after having sat Singapore Airlines is, they ,to be politically correct, not as high a standard as the latter. Service delivered by the pleasant air crew and the menu of the food isn’t so bad but hey to compare with my experience on Singapore Airlines, I’d say that SIA is better. Then again I’m not the one to buy the air tickets as the trip back was paid by SAF, it could be worse……..I could be flying in a C-130 back to Brunei. Ahhh found my flight and some of my camp mates I’d be going back with.. Seems like it’s time to say goodbye to Changi Airport and thus Singapore. Goodbye home.

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Back in Brunei, I found myself missing my friends but to be ruthless I had to quash it down reminding myself I could come back again after 3 months. I could not be distracted lest dwelling too long on it would not be beneficial. Of course reminiscing after a while couldn’t hurt. I did enjoy my brief leave back in Sunny Singapore and the fun I had while there but I had to prepare myself back for work and boy did work come my way.

Therein lies the title, no sooner did I get back to my ‘lovable’ camp then was I literally bombarded with some request to do up some charts for my station. Job? Quite Simple actually Just make it presentable. Unfortunately it was more than that as I ended redoing it lol. This was to make sire that the whole thing would actually be according to a superiors’ satisfaction. The whole thing put a test on my patience as I didn’t really have any talent at the Arts & Craft since I failed the subject when young. Some people are good at some things while they are just as bad at others. I’m no exception. Art is one of my Bane.

Work aside, I set myself to doing some tasks. Namely buying of gifts for my family and friends whom I had quite abit of doing since I think their different gifts lay in different areas. Also abit of correspondences was in order. Hmmm THINK about it.. heh heh.

241104
Sigh my close association with Murphy’s Law strikes again. During my guard duty and I was the Guard Commander, I had some things to deal with, namely one drunk guard and a guard who fell asleep on duty. The resulting issues that arose was very irritating to say the least but it was all relatively light on me other than not able to get a decent sleep for a short while. I can only hope that the others gets off lightly. Also it was during this time that I decided to submit an application to extend my tour in Brunei. It’s now a matter of time to fill it up, submit and await the results. I believe I would not regret it but I’m being told some people do change their minds. The truth is I wish to earn more cash to prepare for further studies and also because I do not have any emotional anchors or any other distractions so I believe I will not have any problems.

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I do not think I have anything much to say for this date simply because I’m writing this in advance and I hoped to make it simple. I’m on official duty and I’m just gonna do it and not anything else excepts get a few groceries. Yeah I’m just wing it. lol

Birthday Wishes!!! December Babies

2004-12-20T19:15:00.000+08:00

Birthday greetings again and they are(drum roll)... :

It is Daphnie Chong's birthday on Wednesday December 22nd. Daphnie will be 21 years old.

It is Tan Chin Ping's birthday on Friday December 17th. Tan will be 22 years old.

It is Dorene Tan's birthday on Wednesday December 29th. Dorene will be 19 years old.

December A month to remember……………………………At least for this round

2004-12-20T19:14:00.000+08:00

Woah it’s a long time since I updated my blog much less came online. It’s been a sort of a hectic Frame. The work is still the same but a lot of things seem to be wrong or it can be said ‘cork up’ ß nice way of putting it. There’s been bad news and good news and typically I got to hear all the bad news and it wasn’t directed at me. Dun care lah huh?

Good News My allowance has being confirmed to be increased with effect from January 2005 and that’s about 200 bucks more give or take. Easier to save I hope. See how lah.

Maybe Christmas mood so maybe now can blog bulls*** all over the blog. Funny thing is I got called u to help in something because I was supposedly known as the fastest fingers on the keyboard in camp…..LOL…..I need more MIRC, MSN, ICQ, etc for more practice. That is my verdict. That done I’ve being feeling bored or restless lately and I wonder why. Another talking or thinking of rubbish perhaps. Dun care lah. Rebellious mood lately….Repressed emotions welling up? Repress it some more. Good solution.

Damm Happy can go for my off and looking to get my mum perhaps a present and then send it via post.. Also intend to go try out this massage parlor I heard so much about since my arrival in Brunei.. Oh well until my next update perhaps. I dun have much to update lately. Just came back recently from outfield and that could be the reason. Feels funny like I’m missing something.

IPPT Worries

2004-12-12T19:13:00.000+08:00

Lol, looks like spending too much time eating while back in Singapore is taking its toll on me. I failed Ippt and I did it pretty badly too. I failed spectacularly so as to speak so it means just one thing. It’s time to go back to the pain of training again. It’s true that it’s easier to keep in shape then to get into shape and boy do I need it. I know what I have to do but boy I wince at the things I know I have to do. Oh well Time to get to know the pain again.

Woah Good news for the guard duty side. There’s a lot of changes and none of it is good for the guards. Lol. Die already lah. Guard duty coupled with duty is bad, it gets worse when there are people going back on their leave, annual/home/bonus/indulgence or something or the other. It means those remaining cover the duty left vacant and boy do I see it. I see myself doing guard duty on the 25th of this month. Sigh Murphy’s Law I suppose but then again I can live with it, still suxs though.

Outfield again and with the normal some what screw up plan changing system we have gotten to know intimately well and more or less expect. Well it happened again but I have got to admit things now seem more fun then it used to be the last time or could it be gotten used to it already. Siao Liao!!! I have gone psycho. Must be out of the utter stress of boredom and it has gotten to me. Oh yeah Better stop ranting and get back to slacking as usual. Not………………………………………

A little Something

2004-12-06T19:09:00.000+08:00

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There are times when you just wonder and wonder just what brought you this far to this point of time. Sometimes looking back one starts to reevaluate his/her own opinion as versus the opinion one is holding on at that time. To weigh the finer points of choices against each other. To measure the pros and the cons. Deciding own what it’s gonna be and deciding to stick with it based on what your knowledge is based on as compared to suddenly this flashback in time. What’s it gonna be? Was it a good decision or was it bad………

Thinking back on this I’m reminded of the words my previous BSO (Battalion Signal Officer) from my parent unit once said: “I’ve may not have made the right decision or choice all the time but I’ve lived with it.” It is this words that I now must bring to bear. Now I’ve spent 6 months in Brunei and what have I come out from it. Have I matured, Gained new perspective, a shorter temperament or wisdom? The truth is I’m finding it hard that I changed in some ways to acknowledge I cannot regain.

Never again would I be so trusting, I would always harbor suspicions on others intentions. So too gone is my readiness to joke. Laughter seems to come hard for me. Too hard in fact……….. I’m being emptied like a pitcher except the pitcher is not seeing much use and it’s cracked. There’s something leaking, something being lost, something so intangible yet so precious and it’s being lost, little by little, bit by bit. I do not know what it is but I’m feeling an emptiness I’ve never felt so keenly before.

Could it be because I’m feeling homesick? I just came back from Sweet Singapore, hard to say or to strike it off. Missing someone? I don’t have anyone to miss other than my immediate family and that because I make it a point to call at least once a month. Friends? Same thing I call at least one each month and though they’re all different at least I get to hear what’s what in Singapore. Maybe it’s just a small phrase and I’ve get over it. I’ll see how things go.

It’s quiet here in Brunei and peaceful. Other than the times the call of ‘Sai Kang’, thereisn’t much to give grief over. Work is work even when one is assigned outfield for many days but it isn’t that hard because there’s the rhythm for it. There are new changes in camp namely the handing over and taking over of LSM. Now is to see just how ‘garang’ the new LSM is compared to the old one and whether would there be any drastic changes to the way the camp is to be runned. Previously we had to go out in the field to make changes to the checkpoints. I seriously do not want to go through that again, it could have killed me or so I felt. I’m definitely not in shape to go traipsing over all the jungles of Brunei and that brings me to another point. I’m told I have to take my IPPT but I already know I have a serious problem in that department. Yes sadly I’m as unfit as a pig….no scrap that, the pig is fitter than me. I have cause to be worried simply as my application for extension of tour here in Brunei is kinda dependant on my passing it, at least I’ve being told that.

Lol I gave a treat to some people recently and today to some of my guards. Yes I’m on guard duty again. No big deal. Funny thing is that the number of people seems to be the same but due to some problems, namely that some of the new arrivals cannot do guard duty because of some reason or something, the guards are doing repeated duties. That really sucks…Big time man. Not that Guard duty is bad but it gets very tiring to keep doing it over and over again especially when you have commitments somewhere else. Hmm abit jagged, signing off. Cya.

A Sai Kang Welcome

2004-11-26T09:45:00.000+08:00

Warhammer and Laptop

2004-11-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

LOL..... I had a little look-see in Orchard when I went down to take a look at my favourite hobby:

Warhammer

I'm glad I did that cause I felt a little something out of place was needed to snap me out of being a melodramatic mood. I came down while a game was being played and standing there at the table commenting and watching brought some peace. Perhaps the symtoms of wackiness in that place sorta brought back good memories. God Knows I'd need it. OF course the walk down Orchard road, passing by lotsa pretty girls could have done the trick. One can get starved of the simple sights like that if one stayed too long in Brunei.

Now Hopefully I can get back for my next trip home in maybe 3-6 months. I'm still undecided on whether I'd would extend my stay in Brunei. Maybe I'd decide when I go back. The money is good and I'm unattached, Seriously I have got nothing solid to anchor me. Who knows.

And Now Introducing a little vanity of mine, Something I bought when I was back to help me pass the time in Brunei.

It has:

512 RAM

60GB HD

ATI 9700 64MB Graphics Card

15" Wide Screen

DVD Writer

Price: $$2700

SO Yeah I'm kinda showing off by writing this down but hey Like I said before and I know most people who owns a blog would agree. My New Laptop. It sounds good so I'm writing this down again or typing which tickles your fancy. Myyyy Neeewww Laptop. :P

IT's MY BLOG. So there. Disclaimers and all the legal blah blah blah applies.

Rain and A little Sunshine

2004-11-16T14:03:00.000+08:00

Ok Let's see about the order.

12th Nov I'm coming home to Singapore
Before that Some bad things, namely disasters.

Before my trip home, there was an incident that involved a training unit. Said unit lost a couple of things and really shook up the whole program. There were even rumors going around that none of the per staff personnel were going back. Thankfully not all was true, I was fortunately one of those able to go back but I do feel for those who were to stay back thus missing their Hari Raya Holiday.
Oh yes before I forgot. A Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim Friends.

Now to put a slight damper on my mood to coming back, the generator that we used for the station died on me and to make things worse, I had to write out a darn statement. Of course add into the mix certain b******* who by virture of their thoughtless tongues would add fire and salt into wounds if not creating them outright. Said Idiots would seem to fail to see their own faults but enough about it. I'm coming Home. Nothing could break it. After 6 months I'm coming Home. This sentence said it all and it raised up my spirits considerably after all It's Home sweet Home Singapore.

Now coming back home was a short joke, I nearly overslept and had to check in my luggage as hand luggage but I'm going home so a smile and do it attitude was all there. The flight was pretty much uneventful and the words coming from the speaker "Welcome Back to Singapore" said it all.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Home Sweet Home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Mission 1: Buy a laptop

Mission 2: Buy whatever things I might need , etc powder

Mission 3: Catch up with old friends.

Sounds pretty easy eh.

Ahh the naivety of it all. Is it me that the thinking is way off. 2 groups of friends I met and already I felt more a stranger than I ever met when I was in Brunei. COuld be after being out of touch so long I was really out of the loop? Perhaps I needed more to time to get readjusted after all Brunei Jungles do not help in develooping social skills. No scorpians and other wildlife do not make interesting subjects both in conversations or conversation topics. Serious.

On the other hand, I saw what every hot-blooded male would miss. Girls. Girls Girls

Simple put: Girls, More girls and even more girls.

Fat, Thin, Round, Square, Small, Big...........All the various sizes, colours and shapes.

Hey it beats insects,animals and trees. At least some resemblance to normal civilised city life. lol

Now this is more or less updated. except perhaps for one more thing.

A birthday Greeting for this month. :)

So what If the said person doesn't read it. It's my Blog ;>

So there You have it:

It is Eddie Lim's birthday on Sunday November 7th.

Eddie will be 21 years old.

Birthday wishes and some minor updates

2004-10-29T09:51:00.000+08:00

Boring and not much thing to add for this month although One Training Frame has passed, there's another on the way that just decided to come along and whack the beejeebers out of slacking. :) Yep I'm now on another offical duty that involves lotsa of "sai kang" but one which I'd rather be doing since it involves computers and touches on what I used to study. :P Beats lugging big heavy and bulky stuff around the place. lol.

Blah blah blah Now lazy to even talk much today lol.........

Yeah Thought I'd add in this months birthdays. So Happy Birthday to all these ppl :P Getting Older ha ha aha.......

Genevieve Zhang's Birthday On Sunday 31st OCt.

23th, 24th & 25th September

2004-10-08T13:18:00.000+08:00

Now why the title one might wonder.
Well it's simple.
I haven't updated my blog since a long time and also those days were my off last month.
Also I might go on a short blitz of mindless blogging.

Now what just did I do on those above mentioned days?

Try nearly 50Hrs of LAN Gaming. 50 Damm Solid Hours of Warcraft 3 and other short LAN games but mostly warcraft 3.

Insane yes but fun. Also I dun think I can bear to go another round on that again. It's fun when you game with people you can converse with and who share the same interests, this is when an off becomes absolutely fun and can tend to go to the extremes.

Next I went on a positive shopping blitz of buying DVDs & VCDs. All just so I could relax and rot watching them. Can't imagine that I blew about 60 odd bucks buying a couple of movies and series. Shiok I must say. Rotting like one heck of a fatso is quite a unique experience I must say.

Take note Eye drops are required. Bottles of water recommended. You have being warned LOL

Of course I'm writing this on my next off day though I won't be spending 2 days out on this one. The call to laziness is calling me and the calling is too strong for me to enjoy. Yeah I'm a slacker. Loving every minute of it until the next call to work. (The call most try to ignore or avoid).

Picking up on the camp anecdotes It seems there an unwritten game about the pesky kamikaze insects known as cicadas.
Next up is the mostly lovable cicada games presented to you by yours truly:

Participants;
Black scorpion
Big Black Hairy Spider
Rhino Beetle
Stag Beetle
Red Centipede
Praying Mantis
Snake
Lighter and Insecticide Spray can

Main Star;
Cicada

Match 1:
Black scorpion Vs Cicada

Commentary:
Cicada thrown on Black scorpion. Claws stretched out. Stinger extended. Stinger jabbed repeatly into Cicada. Takes aprox a few minutes to die.

Match 2:
Big Hairy Spider Vs Cicada

Commentary:
Cicada seen flying straight into web with afore-mentioned occupant. Said Occupant pounces and Cicada is dead. Said occupant also lost most of its web, says eye witness claiming about 78% web gone.

Match 3:
Rhino Beetle Vs Cicada

Commentary:
Enraged Rhino Beetle prodded onto a unsuspecting Cicada. Horns protuding from its head, it catches cicada in a vise-like grip and snaps Cicada into 2 pieces. No struggle.

Match 4:
Stag Beetle Vs Cicada

Commentary:
Almost same result as previous match-up only difference is the cicada knocked the peace-loving beetle off its branch and said beetle tore up the offender. Scene caught on Film.

Match 5:
Red Centipede Vs Cicada

Commentary:
Both parties ignored each other until the cicada decided to land and take off infront of the red 'terror'. The red centipede ignoring the fact that Cicada is 3 times bigger than the puny length it has showed that its venom is anything but puny. Said Cicada died in pain so said eye-witness.

Match 6:
Praying Mantis Vs Cicada

Commentary:
From Reports given, Cicada spotted landing on a branch and having its head torn off in a blink of an eye. Praying mantis was hiding among the leaves and maybe was praying for its next luckless meal. Gruesome
Predator anyone? Insect version?

Match 7:
Snake Vs Cicada

Commentary:
One NSF encountered 01x bad tempered snake but was saved by a heroic cicada which skybombed the snake. The Flying hero unfortunately did not survived its flight.
Jaws Opened, Lunged, Dead cicada.
NSF? He ran of course..................What you expected him to stick around?????

Match 8:
Lighter & Insecticide Spray Can Vs Cicada

Commentary:
Another NSF, a cook, who has decided to declare war on the Cicadas. See one Spray one.
Modus? Spray can and Lighter makes a nice mini Flame thrower. Instant roast Cicada anyone???

Whoo Plenty Colours.......Swoon............

Editing and more birthday wishes

2004-09-24T16:23:00.000+08:00

Ok nothing much. Now on my off....bought a couple of DVDs and will now comence on trying to spice up my blog. So far nothing much.

will see how far my IT Skills have fallen. including all speelling, grammmar and vocab errors included....

Too 1 of my "daughters"....

Felicia Lee aka Wolfy Birthday 28th Sept.

HAPPY Birthday!!!!!

Camp Birthday!!!

2004-09-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

OK Camp Anniversery. 17th of Sept.

SAI KANG WARRIORS Chiong AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
Die Lah....

Before must do sai kang later after everything must do sai kang.
I shall refer to them as the "before saikang" and the "after sai kang"......

Alright lah on the day itself. Got play games got gooood foooood.......sluuurrrrpppppp....

Rain the whole day while the games were on but never mind. We all FIT(fat)...RUn around the whole day so quite warm but overall quite enjoyable cause everyone was having fun which was the whole purpose. : )

Note: Now reverting to very simple idiot langauge. :)

Abit on News global and local

2004-09-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

Ok Let's see my take on some of the news around the world.

SARS seems to have reared its ugly head again but hey various countries ain't publishing it much and are probably keeping it under wraps but hey who wouldn't??? Not much sense in inciting panic I say.

Terrorists storm and takes school hostage? That's is probably the sickest thing in my opinion. Religion fine. Religious war (jihad) is another thing. Taking innocent children hostage to prove a point? Oh come on. This is where things like that happen to give religion a bad name not that I'm particularly very religious myself but these people were too much. I saw the pictures and read the news report on it. Disgusted is probably mild to say the least. To all those terrorists out there and if u guys ever read this. Well F*** You!!!!!!!!!!
On a side note to provide maybe some sick sense of fun, there could be a school holiday cause "my school got taken over" excuse will work here. No offense intended.

Bird Flu. Excuse me here we go again. Dead Chickens, More Dead Chickens and none of them got a MC.......Eggs prices are up going up higher and faster than a speeding bullet. The prices are able to leap over tall mountains in a single bound. Yeah I know It's an exaggeration. So Would fast food like KFC take losses from this dastardly and insidious disease? Would Long John Sliver now be able to prove that fish is good. (I do like LJS).. Kudos to the government though for keeping this stuff under control.

Brunei Prince got hitched. Duh...I am in Brunei.......... It's a holiday here and things are pretty lively judging from the live coverage. I only managed to watch about 10 minutes of it though. LOL.

Baby Bonus.....Can't say I'm that interested but when u see the moolah that could roll in maybe you's think differently too. Who knows what others might think but hey it's a good scheme and with other perks such as longer maternity leave it could translate into big payoffs for budding parents in fast-paced Singapore. Any parents wan discuss this? I'm not reali too well versed LOL. Just crapping my way through.

*Note that the news may seems outdated and maybe a little far off when it was reported. Therefore I declare that And any errors made not in context is mine and that I did not get the luxurious chance of sitting down and reading them cause it's damm busy time here and there's only so much newspaper for sooooooooo many people. *

Oh yeah I got a sudden interest in the New Paper Face competition. Come on I'm a guy after all......If i started looking a guys..Something is definitely wrong somewhere. :)

http://charlenelim.blogspot.com/
The above URL is for my 'Daughter' who also has a blog...When time permits I'd probably set in the links and do up my blog abit. Seems that things are getting more and my blog seems lacking. LOL

http://www.xiaxue.blogspot.com/
THis one LOL is priceless. Not many people would have the guts to post everything including their utmost thoughts on a subject but this gal's got it. Sure she's got hate mail but hey she's got admirers too. She's seems a bitch but I dun think so I'd say she's got guts and a very open mind on what's the dos and don'ts. She stretches that boundaries..Talk about testing waters. Oh yeah I saw one of her pics and one of her friends was in TPGE, a guitar club, with me the most horrible player u could imagine. :P So it's a small world LOL. Last I heard she was going on TV including a newspaper report on her that's how I came to know about this unlikely celebrity.
Read her blog for a refreshing outlook sometimes.

Kudos till next time.

Outfield Mayhem

2004-09-09T03:45:00.000+08:00

Alright I apologies for not updating my blog for so long but hey due to my position as a station IC.. .........
I dun have much of a choice. For this time I was outfield for about a month with allowance for me to back to camp to take a shower or simply refresh myself, twice.
Yes I tell ya Twice.
No particular reason other than that there weren't many people left to replace me for the night. I'd emphasize more on the manpower shortage later.

Side Issue:
Now there's 14 guys on my platoon but because u have;
some that are on official duties,
some that are on leave,
some who simply cannot be touched or never around when u need them, only to amazingly appear when most of the work done. (A skill worth learning)

So it sux when u are the remaining sum that gets called on to do some work known as maintenance. Yuck is all I can say...................

Back to the so-called main issues.

Now It's crazy but staying outfield so long could do something to one's brain. In a way I'm declaring myself partially insane if not fully and if I've haven't declared it yet. The outdoors are wonderful with sights of the various insects I saw during this wonderful time. Spiders, millipedes, butterflies, moths, the commonly red/black ants and of course the superb insect muscial symphony comprising of cicadas(not sure if it's true), crickets, frogs(not an insect I know) and some f****** monkeys............

Ok So it's not exactly an insect symphony but I'm calling it that so there. :P

Music aside. My close association with Murphy's law proved pretty much consistent with the generator dying on me twice forcing an emergency transfer...Alright it's not an emergency but I had to call camp to get me a new one so to me it was an emergency.
Next THE Damm tent was leaking...Now How did I discover it? Well It rained heavily and I found water dropping on my head isn't particularly pleasant when U're trying to sleep...And no replacement of the accursed foul tent I endured for the whole month...Thank god it didn't exactly rained everyday...Note I said not exactly.... Well mostly........... :(

A good thing is that there's isn't anyone to bother u when u outside but to much of a good thing is bad. The boredom that sets in becomes almost unbearable at times and one starts learning as many games as one can with a pack of cards...Do not scoff the humble pack of cards swiped from our fantastic SIA with the pretty packaging. It proved to be a boon companion on my boring days which is pretty much everyday. LOL

This may be my longest and maybe incredibly boring post filled with and amazing assortment of possible spelling, punctuation, grammar, verb or whatever mistakes u can spot.

Oh yeah notice the time? I'm on guard duty again.......... Will post a new one later......

This time on maybe local news. :)

Promotion!!!!

2004-09-01T03:41:00.000+08:00

Hmmm what can I say? I got promoted to Corporal but it may not be a good thing ....Why??? Cause now it means I can be a guard commander which can also equate to more guard duty. Life sure is good..........When I got it? Well With effect from 010904 but hey nobody's impressed. Least of all me

Next Up.....

Happy Birthday to Fong Xiang Ting 2nd Sept 1982
My childhood friend which I haven't seen for a damm long time. LOL
Not that she's ever gonna stumble on this. :) Makes me wonder why do I bother proclaiming birthday wishes for some people knowing chances are high that they may never read it.
ahh screw it. After all WHO CARES???????????? It's MY STINKING BLOG!!!!!!!

Hmm will run thru again..........I mean with more news and not physical running. U damm NUMBSKULL?>!

Note: Written and posted 090904 but indicated as a 010904 post. ;P

Birthday Wishes

2004-08-21T14:42:00.000+08:00

Well I thought I'd delicate this section to Birthdays cause It seems alot of birthdays to me, falls during this date.

So Happy 21st Birthday to Winnie Chiam's XiuTing.. This is one great gal I met in Polytechnic. Intelligent and easy to get along. Enjoy and many happy returns of the day. LOL

A Happy Birthday to Choong Yen Nee, Unless I remembered wrongly She took part in the Miss Singapore 2004 Competittion and although I dun noe what result she got cause I was on duty.... I'd say she did good.

If there are any others I haven't mentioned it's probably because I sorta deleted the mail I received from Birthday reminder....sori so I'll add you guys in as soon as I can err....find them back...

Cheap Ad::: http://www.BirthdayAlarm.com

New Appointments.

2004-08-11T20:05:00.000+08:00

I've got a new appointment and it's not exactly turning out very well as I'm still new at it and mistakes are bound to happen. But with my luck and close association with Murphy, especially Murphy's Law. Well Probably spectacular screw-ups.

I also would like to wish a friend of mine Happy Birthday which is coming soon on the 15th of Oct. So here's a HAPPY BIRTHDAY and wishing ya many happy returns of the day to my little 'sis', Lindy.
:)

Happy Birthday Singapore

2004-08-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

What Can I Say?? Just take a look at the title and it says it all.

Happy Birthday to my country of Birth. Oh yeah I got a new appointment aand I'm on guard duty again.

Will update more often if possible. Kudos.

Nuff Said...........

Different Plans

2004-08-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

Well looks like I'm developing a patten here. If I'm online it most probabely means I"m doing Guard Duty or I'm on my Off. How to tell this minor itty-bitty detail is simply to look at the time of my post as these would be a general good indicator of where I am or was.

I've learnt that my plans for my hom,e leave has changed though Im not too happy with it...First things first I can only come back from the 24th Dec 04 -1st Jan 05. Can't come back on the 11th cause there's no flight back. Sad man. well it looks like I can't go for any birthday parties before that date. Bummer man. Sorry.

Nothing else much other than the epidemic of stink bugs seems to have lessened considerably of late maybe they would be gone after a few more days..hopefully.

Stink Bug Invasion

2004-08-02T00:54:00.000+08:00

This is the latest report coming in regarding the latest irritant to the camp personal which is literally raising the stink. The source and cause of the camp's obvious distress are insidous little bugs known as Stink Bugs. These little creatures have arrived in swarms of thousands as they seek to probabely stink up the entire area whereever they go to. This new invasion is the follow up season after the Cicada and Moth seasons respectivitly.
Stink Bugs as their names connots, stink. Being scattered over all the place, especially near the lights,they have being trodden on, sprayed with insecticide, burnt and even boiled but they still return day after day. The first sightings of these dimunitive yet numerous pests was about 6 days ago shortly after a marked reduction in the numbers of the moths.
Apparently the camp would be typically be under seige by various insects armies with the likes of the above mentioned insect regiments and others regiments such as ants, mantis and probabely other insects yet to be revealed. More to be revealed when more infomation is recovered.

Lately the price of overseas calls on Handphones has being proving to be quite high thus there is now a short survey and test on using alternative calls such as the local lines or a pre-paid card. More reports will be done on this interesting development as it is now underway even as this report is brought to you straight from SAF Lakiun Camp.

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Thought I would do something different for this time round. Enjoy Lol.

P.S: Maybe coming back on the 11th of Dec.

Something with nothing

2004-07-28T17:37:00.000+08:00

Angels East Angels West
No Matter Where, nevertheless
Angels always guard thy(your) rest
From a place so far
I look upon a star
A feeling is shared and pondered
When it's unveiled, it's a wonder

Just a simple snippet I remembered from a movie and something I thought out but never completed so I thought I'd just combined them together. Anyway nothing particularly of note happened other than getting a chance to ride in a chopper to go and help clear a landing site. Simple maintenance stuff.

Anyway I thought I was doing GUard duty today. Turns out I wasn't needed cause Someone else was doing Extra so I was rendered un needed. Ouch. Not for me but for the guy doing the extra. Sway...................

Also Too all my friends reading this, Spread this around if u feel like it. Also Keep in contact...I may not be around to instantly answer but I am contactable via mail, MSN or ICQ..... Kudos to ya all......

Off and nothing abt it

2004-07-25T10:01:00.000+08:00

HA HA HA. I'm off now. $1 LAN gaming and all that food out there here I come!!

LAN gaming as I mentioned earlier is pretty cheap with the going rate as $1/hr and $0.50 for 1/2hr or less. Good eh? Not to say the rate is the same for both surfing and gaming.

Now food is good and what do ya noe? The simple foodcourt located in the departmental stall serves u with their own personal staff. How's dat for service? Clothes, shoes, jewellery and cinema shows are at veri good prices which leads me to the conclusion that indeed spending once u're out there is veri normal inclusive of spending your entire allowance in a day. Dun forget the wide wide range of VCDs and DVDs avaliable that one cannot find in Singapore anymore. These long forgotten shows are like DragonballZZ, Gundam, Old Ultraman Series, Fist of the North Star and many more are going for a good price which is not too high for the pocket unless one goes overboard. Not to say there are the newer animes and moves out here. Not bad.

Oh yeah even though it's my off, I got one grumption because I'm asked to bring back a fax machine. Oh yeah Fun eh? Anyway well someone's got to do it if u look on the optimistic side of things. yeah right. Just do lor. Heck see what comes up the next time.

A Dull week

2004-07-21T12:00:00.000+08:00

Well now here I am again. hell it seems to be a pretty sad week for me this time.
One:
Guard Duty
rest
Guard Duty
Rest
Guard Duty
Rest;
You get the idea?
2: I don't seee any of my usual friends online when i go online, even those not serving in the army I wonder y. Even my calls rare that they are, ain't goin thru. Am i in some time zone where I dun exist or maybe all my friends just up and left.
Yep I'm getting paranoid. lol. Man This feels alot like captivity and it's not helped when sometimes the Guard commander is a total jerk. Maybe it's me but now i feel perhaps, depressed, a stage i think comes about when one finds oneself stuck in an area and with no recourse to go anywhere else. Even actions in camp is pretty limited and I find myself wishing sometimes that I could be some place else. Pretty sad ah?

I could say more on the life in Brunei in another, i think repettive and boring, chapter of unremarkable comments and thoughts in the next post maybe? I'm feeling slightly drained and have neither the mood nor energy to write anymore.......TIll next time.

The Mountain Biang

2004-07-15T02:55:00.000+08:00

Sungei Biang or Just Mount Biang. The Highest Mountain MOuntain in Brunei at about 1100+m above sea level.
Impressive eh? Well I got to climb it..... Poor Unconditioned me.

On the 7th, July 2004, I started on my excerise but I only started on Biang on 8th, July 2004.
I flew in on a helicopter to the foot of that Mountain and that's where it all began. An adventure for me.

Actually Mt. Biang wasn't that bad, I was doing pretty good until I came upon the 'Stairways to heaven'. It
truely was a stairways to heaven where the physically unfit would have problems going up.It is in esscence a series of roughly hewn stone on a very steep face of the mountain simply described. Now along the way,
I saw many plants and animals one normally wouldn't see in Singapore.
Insects made up alot of the animals catergory but the closest encounter I had was when I inadverntly was unaware of a viper just beside my heel behind me. I escaped unscathed fortunately.
Along up the trail I heard Wild Maquees Monkeys and also I saw the famed "Tong Kat Ali",
a plant reputed to be Nature's Viagra. Truely for the conditioned Biang isn't a problem but when I went up I was unfortunately not very physically well conditioned but hey I came up and I came back down and to me that's an achievement well worth the effort. Of course count in the fact I may be going back up a few more times. :)...:(

Till then wait for more news........

Some things about what I'm doing now

2004-07-14T16:55:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Let's see, currently I"m in Brunei on my overseas postings which I volunteered.I'm serving my National Service (NS).

Now Seriously Brunei isn't such a bad place baring of course certain things. Things like there isn't much of a night life to speak of, life is pretty much quiet and slow.
Now all things considered there are some things which is very different from my home of Sunny Singapore.
For one thing, there is a transport known as water taxi which is a heck of faster than the convectional transport. They use the expressways of water along the rivers to transport goods, people and also items of import and export. One thing here is that the bus services and the water taxis are closed off at 1630, meaning not running, and that the taxis here go by a quotatation system. All in all it's pretty fine here.

Here next is the people around here. Well there are the Ibans and typically there are things associated with them that can be found here such as their long house which is really loooong.... Now overall the peoiple are pretty much decent and friendly but then again compared to Sunny Singapore there are things to note.
One here the peolpe are typical of the 'Kampung life' unlike the Singoprean style of life which exposes unpleasant facts of life. Here the people do take care of themselves and their neighbours : Note I'm stressing the word neighbours here. sometimes the closest neighbours to be found is about 3-7 km away. Not that it's all bad considering that due to my limited stay in Brunei I noticed that well almost everyone owns a car. Some Own Boats........
Maybe it's me but there seems to lack a certain togetherness here? Well when I go back for my home leave, I'll just find out. Certainly my eyes have indeed being opened although maybe not tha tmuch but be assured they have being opened.

Oh yeah LAN shops cost $1 to surf/game. Preety cool and probabely a consolation of sorts. Will describe the Mountain next............

Abit on Myself. An intro.........

2004-07-14T07:37:00.000+08:00

NOthing other than I have the usual Appendages associated with being a normal human being. Make that One ugly, quiet, uncharistimatic and overall nothing particularly outstanding.

Hell I like reading, sports and possiblity almost anything that catches my fancy at that time, maybe due to a short attention span. I currently enjoy a good game of table top gaming known as Warhammer.I play a Chaos Army of Nurgle and man is it difficult to play it. It is my hope though to include just about every aspect of chaos in my army. It's expensive but i'm in no hurry.

Got a Diploma in ICP but i realise I wanted to try something new, maybe it's something i couldn't resist or that I may have wasted about 3 of my life studying something I'm not interested but i know it's not true now. Just wanted to gain knowledge in an entirely different area.

But enough on this intro. Let's get the rest of this done and up. in a way............Let's Dance.