Nice weekend. Enjoyed it. retty fun DnD session with the guys. dinner as usual. Had an interesting RPGA session on Monday @ PI. Kudos to Wayne. lol seems that my new hangout is PI. no life liao lol.
Today was reality smackdown. Bad. Big. Horrendous. Now I'm an idiot or a naive idiot or a simply incredible naive moronic, incompetent, trusting, easily suckered idiot. Take your pick.
I try so hard to to do well for my job and I try to make sure I cover the loopholes. Now how does one cover the loopholes when It is discovered that the loopholes were covering only bigger holes. Sure I'm not that professional but isn't some sense of responsiblity needed?
I did an inventory check only to discover that there were additional stuff that was
NEVER entered. Worse thing is the guy who did the check assured me that it was all done, showing me the documentation that was prepared. Here's the news.
THAT piece of
OFFAL never did send in the in that informaiton and fool that I am, I believed him. Now I have to handle the mess.
I swore once that Whatever happens in a task, I would endevour not to inflict it on the person taking over. Is this a naive thinking? I believe one should hand over duties with at least some courtesy of informing the person if some tasks are not yet done but maybe just me alone believes that. The general conseus would be "ahhh boh ka lan, anyhow do."
I mean come on man. Oh well now I'm just ranting. There so many holes covering holes if there is such a term or possible description, ah never mind. There are so many holes covering holes that it's not funny when the extent of damage comes clear and the worse thing is......................It blows up on me. Maybe I'm suay but
dammmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not paid enough to handle all this shit. &*))%@#%$
I don't get OT, I dun get much compensation for additional expenses. I'm supposed to be this apparently degree holder who can do all the stuff which I'm offically not even allowed a whiff off. Ironic. I'm a supposed Tech Assistant who cannot do anything because ;
1: I don't have the keys to unlock it.
2: I dun have the permission to fix it.
3: I dun have the account to go and reset
What does this leaves me? Oh yeah Talking.........alot. Now I admit I failed Socialising and Talking tests staying in Brunei but this is ridiculous. I'm worried I'd just lose it and become so darn cynical that I will never find it within myself to trust anyone again. Why? I have being lied to too many times. The truth hurts. I'm a sucker. A friend once told me that I'll never make it in life. Why? I'm too nice, and in the outside world you're prey. So it seems that I must unleash the inner ruthless beast just to survive? Somehow deep within I fear that I will become that ruthless person those laughterable TV shows put on. The scary thing is, It's true............................